I had had the notion that asking her about her life / might add something to what I thought of as my art, as though / her past and her love could be vectors of use. But, I started to / realize that what I actually needed to know, I would have / to conjure for myself, because what we know most deeply / we guard best, even as she spoke, laughed, passed the glow / of each story to me, like a document I could have in hand / but could not understand.