Rebecca Hazelton
The Husband at Rest
Now am I as the century
unwinding, the lustrous
past sifted from our present grind.
Vast, matter of fact,
painful in the fine and particulate.
You think I am steady
breath, steady hands,
a man who has no desire to take
from trouble.
You think I am
a man who is held to a line.
Today you told me
of one more reason not to love you
and the telling was a bell
ringing out the joy of its own cracking.
Now we know
what you’re made of.
Now we can see inside.
Night is closing on our small backyard,
and the bats ring the sky
in widening schools of black scrap.
You are somewhere in the gold box
at the top of the hill,
moving objects
from room to room.
No matter how I try,
I cannot forget how long
I’ve held the world above my head.
Its weight feels like your body
after you’ve fallen asleep
beside me: dense, vacant, and imperative.
Loneliness is a complete calculation
but what we are equal to
isn’t the same.
There are whole calendars
where you crossed off the days,
so assured
that more were coming.
I see with a longer view.
The Husband Has a Dream
The streetlights in the cul-de-sac
blinked on one by one, illuminating
the husband’s grief as it rose and fell
in radiant clouds of dust, settling on the morning
glories clamped tight against the night,
on his suit jacket,
on the backs of his hands.
If he tried to brush it away
it smeared him with greasy soot,
so he didn’t try.
All around him were houses
whose windows poured golden light
onto the lawns
and inside each room
small dramas enacted.
In one, parents floated
around the dinner table, desperate
to keep a child laughing.
In another, a man fucked a bored woman
on the stairs and with every step
she slipped further away.
A teenaged boy read a book and drank his first beer.
A dog slept alone by the fire.
It seemed to the husband
that someone must be waiting
for him to come home, but
there were no keys in his pockets.
By then there was so much dust
in the air that it almost seemed solid before him,
forming a frame,
then a door, then a lock.
The hardest part was grasping the handle—
which was suffering—
and then he was through.
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