Aaron Smith


More to the Story

except when there’s 
not, and often there’s
just another story, or 
the same story, different 
version. He called him 
faggot from his car,
or from his car said 
die faggot. He yelled 
cocksucker at the guys
who call each other 
cocksucker for fun, 
but it wasn’t fun, 
the neighbor girl called 
the neighbor boy a homo 
from her front porch, 
blowing a whistle,
so everyone would look,
and everyone did,
except those who
didn’t and didn’t 
say anything. The man 
called the other man
a fucking little homo, 
and the one who was 
called a fucking little 
homo threatened to 
call the police, but 
didn’t. Three faggots 
walk into a bar and 
fuck each other up 
the ass, said one guy 
to other guys, and all 
the guys laughed, except 
some didn’t, because
they didn’t think it was 
funny, or it was funny 
but they didn’t want 
to admit it, and they
know faggots them-
selves who are good 
guys even though 
they’re faggots, or 
because of it.


No Apologies


Michael says he read in a book that serial killing
is down since the 70s and 80s. DNA evidence
makes it harder to get away with now. He says it

the way one might say married couples are having
babies later in life, or that millennials buy paper

towels instead of napkins. He says when he watches
documentaries about murder, he ends up feeling
empathy for the killer. James reads me his new poem

over the phone; it’s about a guy who threatened
to beat him up when he was young. The guy’s girlfriend

said leave the fag alone, let’s go. A gay fiction writer
said he’d forgiven everyone who tortured him

in high school, whether they wanted it
or not—he didn’t want to live with that anger.

I congratulated him and unfriended him on Facebook.
I point out to James that the girl in his poem

made mercy and shame into the same thing.
Michael says: something had to make them that way.


Also by Aaron Smith: "Thermopylae," "The Rest of It," "Living"
Interview: a conversation with Aaron Smith on his book Primer


Aaron Smith is the author of four books of poetry: Blue on Blue Ground, winner of the Agnes Lynch Starrett Prize, Appetite, Primer, and, most recently, The Book of Daniel. He is co-host of Breaking Form: a Poetry and Culture Podcast.

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