Mountain Misery —Jeff Ewing
The first deer I shot at I never knew
if I hit—he staggered a step sideways,
though it might have been simply
surprise—the fog torn like a luffed sail
sectioned and resewn to a wider veil,
the hemmed edges tacked to either side
of the ravine so as to shroud from the likes
of me out before first light this folded acre,
shinnying up a half-stripped alder my
sighted-in two-forty-three smelling of oil
and kit-kit-dizze, everywhere the astringent
waft of kit-kit-dizze—mountain misery—
sweet at first but over time clinging, oppressive,
my jean cuffs saturated so even at home
I can’t get away from it, even at school under
the noses of girls who’ve never been to
Calaveras the bitter scent accompanies me.
I imagine they can see me yank the trigger—
not the cool steady pull I’d been taught—
walking a few paces behind as I follow
what might be drops of blood or might be
moth larvae dotting the hide-stiff oak leaves,
further and deeper into fast-closing chaparral
where all I can hear is my own breath held
and released until I lose the trail in the fog
that’s been cleanly mended around me
with as much care as can be afforded from
ragged scraps back into whole cloth.
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Jennifer Bullis
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Denise Duhamel
Alejandro Escudé
Jeff Ewing
Michael Hettich
Dennis Hinrichsen
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Eleanor Kedney
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Patrick T. Reardon
Matthew Schnirman
Maureen Seaton
Jeffrey Skinner
J.R. Solonche
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